Lecturer's question & My answer.. Lol

Yesterday had spanish class. We study about different places and things in spain... We learning to form sentences to answer question like "Where is ...?" & "Is there ....?". So mainly the verb we used is estan and hay... Then we learn about comparison, like tallest, more tall than, etc..

One part that we need to do is fill in the blank with the words given.. So happen the sentence goes like this "El puerto de Rotterdam es el mas grande de Europa.", which mean the Rotterdam port is the biggest in Europe. And i knew the lecturer goin to ask us where is Rotterdam... Iskss... My knowledge about the world right? i can say is super duper poor... None of my classmate know where is it too... So i just simply guess any country, but i think some country i tell is not in Europe, hahaha!!! like Britain, Finland, Australia...

And lecturer's reaction was just like how i expected it to be, "O my God, you all don't know where is it???". Thus she ask us a question, "Didn't you learn about map? What you learn all this while?". Guess what my answer...

My answer to her "we learn sejarah about Msia lo!".... LoL... XD

I am so....!!!

This is my first post in this blog.. Just to write down my thought, feeling..

Today having a presentation(teaching method in Economics) early in the morning... I really hate presentation early in the morning... coz i'm too sleepy... But this doesnt matter much, coz i can go back to sleep after the presentation.

But after the presentation just now... Cant go back to sleep, coz I'm in a super down mood.. I never had such feeling, feel so worthless after doing the presentation...

I never thought i will be that blur until i forgot to bring my pendrive which consists my presentation file, on the presentation that day itself. When i realize that already 8.55am, 5 min more we are going to start presentation.. Other than anxious and worry, i cant think of others feeling that i had for that moments...

Thanks for my housemate helping me to take it and i rush to fetch her... It's already 10 minits later when i reach the smartboard lab, and lecturer already there.

How can i present with such anxious, worries?? I'm so guilty coz my partner also panic because of that... Extremely sad..

When the time i present, i just couldnt present well... feel like losing all the malay vocabulary, what come to mind is only english vocab... During presentation, I realise i dont know my students'(others friends attending the same tutorial) name, how am i going to ask them question without knowing who they are...

After the presentation, the lecturer criticise our teaching... I feel so unworthy after the whole presentation..

In this moment, I really know God surely opposes the proud... I thought I can always be steady enough for my presentation, since i can speak well.. But, at that moment, when i can't even think of any vocab, make me realise I'm just NOTHING without God. If God doesnt with you, there is nothing you can do.

It was all my fault, too proud.. too blur... Forgive me, Father.

Exteremely sad at the corner,
zoe